3-30-10 idealistblasingleness

3-30-10
Tu
23:03

Man, I can be really insensitive. My mind gets so caught up in idealist truths that I forget that just because something is true doesn’t mean that it isn’t heartbreaking or frightening. Pastor Peter received a death threat for him and his family last night. Job has also been threatened. Children are rejected by all of their family and extended relatives. children are deprived food by evil men. Others simply have no one to give them dinner (or lunch or breakfast). Wives are abandoned by husbands. Sons and daughters are abandoned by fathers.
I realize too, how much easier it is to be single than married. I want to be married. There have been times that I have felt very lonely. I don’t feel lonely now,but I find myself acting lonely (tempted to flirt with girls who I am not even romantically interested in, etc…). I struggle with lust too. I’m really frustrated by it and I am praying against it. I wish God would instantly take away the struggle, but I am praying and fighting against it. Anyway, it is so much easier to be single than married. For instance, I have nothing in life or death to fear. The worst someone can do to me is torture, humiliate, and kill me, and then I get to spend the rest of eternity enjoying the best place that God ever made (that I know of) (to make an incomplete understatement). Not bad eh?